The lost year

I saw what i didn't want to see and now I regret it.
I wish I hadn't haphazardly found my way there but alas there it was staring me in the face. As i was making the comparisons (hidden in the darkness of the room with just the light of the monitor reflecting off the screen) I thought to myself, "Turn it off" yet i couldn't pull myself away. Although I know i have nothing to worry about, I find myself 2 days later still pondering on the topic. Why was I feeling this way? It was in the past and that's when I realized my past came and left. The years have passed me by so quick I hardly remember my past. I searched and searched for that missing year of my life. And just like that it had disappeared and I have no documentation/pictures to support any event that took place during that year. It still bothers me that I can't recall what happened during that year. I just know it was turbulent and emotional. Perhaps that's what I'll account it to be, life changing and call it a day and make up what I've always thought I'd do but never really did.